Temporary Single Parent

Where have I been? Oh, here...being a single parent for a while.

Hubby and Hannah flew back to the States for Spring Break, and the two little ones are also on Spring Break. So, I'm home with them, though I still have to teach two days this week. Hubby left last Thursday, and I came home to an unexpected gut-wrenching feeling. While we lived in the US, he'd gone out of state before while I stayed home with one of the girls, and I had no problem. We missed him, but I was cool. Here? Totally different story...I felt vulnerable, empty, anxious. I kept thinking, "What happens if I'm injured in a car wreck? Who will they call? Where will my daughters be taken?" To make things worse, Amelia got sick the night they left, so I got about 4 hours sleep for the whole night. I don't think I showered at all the next day...still something that has to be timed just right. For example, I set my alarm for 6:00 am this morning, but it just happened to be a night when Amelia slept through the whole night, so she woke up at 6:00 starving for a bottle. No shower for Mommy.

By very expensive private arrangement, both girls are going to daycare tomorrow and Thursday, so I'll be able to make it to campus and meet with students, get work done, etc. The time without Hubby has gotten better in the sense that we have a rhythm now, and we've talked to him every day. Eliza is missing him terribly :( We have numbered tick marks on the dry erase board that we keep on the fridge, so she can see how many more days until Daddy comes home. Friday cannot come soon enough!